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HAPPY NEW YEAR.

I really didn't mean to not blog for over a month but life got in the way. I'm not really sure that anyone's exactly waiting for a post anyway but I do enjoy having a wee moan on here.

At the end of last year I was planning on writing a post about an issue I've pondered for a while now (which I will come to mention in a moment) but then someone went and changed my circumstances and now...well now it's thrown a whole new spanner in the works really.

The issue itself is more of a question to those in a relationship, and especially more long-term/established couples: do you struggle to say the word boyfriend/girlfriend?

I've been in a relationship for nearly 4 years now and this has never really gotten easier for me. I don't know what it is. Any time I have to mention Jake to someone new, who doesn't know his name, I find myself slightly cringing at having to say "my boyfriend." I think part of it is feeling like I seem self-important (a trait that I can't bear*) or boastful. There's nothing worse than those "MY boyfriend this and MY boyfriend that..." people is there?
But...he IS my boyfriend, and after 4 years surely I'd feel I've earned the right to say that?!

I also think it's partly because the meaning of the word boyfriend/girlfriend is too broad. It could be the word used to describe the relationship between two tweenagers in the playground and I don't feel that applies to Jake and I, who've lived together for 3 years and shared everything. It feels like there should be a better, more mature word than boyfriend, but not as boring as "partner." Y'know?

I don't think I'm the only one who's had this problem. I have noticed others cringing at the moment when they have to describe the status of their "significant other." I'm sure I have. 

I'd genuinely like some views on this. 

Anyway, originally I was planning on going further in-depth on this issue but then my damn boyfriend proposed to me and now he's my fucking fiancé.

*Girlish squeal*

This was a massive surprise and joyous, wonderful thing.

Honestly. 

How the fuck am I going to say fiancé?!!! 

"Boyfriend" was much easier than the most pretentious word in the world.

*I feel I should add that although I say I can't bear self-importance, that's basically all my blog is based on. Queen Hypocritius. 

Be prepared for a Gossip Girl blog soon as the last episode aired a month or so ago and I'm still feeling raw about it. Thank you please and goodnight.